For My Best Friend!

Its my birthday today and I was out with my relative for a new release "3-idiots"!

No doubt, the movie is awesome but m here sharing something very special about my special friend!!

"Behti Hawa Sa Tha Wo,

Udti Patang Sa Tha Wo,

Kahaan Gaya Use Dhundo...."

The day i heard this song, only one thing came to my mind, SAURABH!!

My bestest friend who is no more with me..

This is for you, Saurabh..

M sure atleast once in yo lifetime you will go thru my blog and will be pleased to know that I miss you as a true friend yaar...

I remember how desperately you brought "Tekas" for me from Jodhpur!! I need not tell you that I remember everything as you do... Anyway, THANKYOU!!

Thank you sooooooooo very much for everything

Unke Liye...

Unka Ehsaas Meri Saanson Mein Rehta Hai,

Unka Hi Khayal Mujhe Pal-Pal Rehta Hai,

Saath Nibhaane Ka Waada Jo Kiya Hai Unhone,

Yehi Ehsaas Har Pal Rehta Hai,

Kisiko Apna Banane Ka Maza Hi Kuch Aur Hai,

Kisike Ho Jaane Ka Ehsaas Hi Kuch Aur Hai,

Na Jaane Kya Maksad Hai Meri Zindagi Ka,

Par Pyaar Se Jeevan Jeena Hi Kuch Aur Hai..

BEST FRIENDS...HARD TO FIND, 'N' STIL HARDER TO LOSE...

Its really hard to live yo life without yo best friends...

I really miss them, but the only obligation is that, I can't approach any of them.. Maybe, coz I hurt them..

This is when I have realised how incomplete I'm without them..

I'm all alone today, and life has turn rough again... I try to divert my mind and play few of my favorites.. Here goes the song and I realise how far I've come.. Rather, I'm still waiting and how far they have left... 

"Haath Chute Bhi To Rishte Nahi Chuta Karte,

Waqt Ki Shaakh Se Lamhe Nahi Toda Karte..

Shahed(honey) Jeene Ka Mila Karta Hai Thoda-Thoda,

Jaane Walon Ke Liye Dil Nahi 'Thoda' Karte.."

I really miss you guys.. You'll always remain with me as sweet as ever.

I really wonder how blindly I believed u and changed myself as u always wanted.. Maybe that's y, today I'm able to tackle things much easily when you are not there..

Shruti, my best friend, is not with me.. I miss her like hell! but now its a long time that she's not with me.. Still, I remember d days we spent together in college and university campus.. Those sandwiches and pani puri's... The superb fly over in our town.. I miss everything!!

Saurabh, my other best friend..

Its jus a few months that m practising to live life without him! Before giving my opinion or reaction, I imagine (Saurabh yahaan hota toh kya karta?) aur wahi karti hu... Everything becomes SIMPLE!! Thank you Saurabh!! I've no words to describe how much you have given me.. Its a real TREASURE!

They have touched my life DIFFERENTLY!!

I can never dare to forget them, rather define myself without them.. However distant they are...

Thank You!!

Raahein...

Raahein Kabhi Bhatakti Nahi, Hum Bhatak Jaate Hain,

Khuda Ko Bewajah Kos Kar, Ruth Hum Jaate Hain...

Wo To Har Samay Humein Sambhalte Hain,

Na Jaane Kyu, Fir Bhi, Hum Dagmaga Jaate Hain..

Roz Hota Hai Iss Dil Mein Shor, Roz Hoti Hai Iss Dil Mein Khamoshi,

Thak Jaate Hain Hum Magar, Har Pal Rehti Hai Ye Behoshi!

Badi Shiddat Se Aaj Likhne Chale Hum, Iss Dil Ki Kahani,

Shabd Chup Ho Gaye Aur, Chalke Aankhon Ki Zabaani…

Na Jaane Kyu Hum Inse Kheeche Chale Jaate Hain,

Rote Hain Khud Aur Aansu Hume Manaate Hain..

Khuda Ko Bewajah Kos Kar, Ruth Hum Jaate Hain.

Raahein Kabhi Bhatakti Nahi, Bhatak Hum Jaate Hain…

Meri Likhi...

"Har Pal Laata Hai Yaadein Teri,
Kisse Kahu Main Wo Baatein Teri?
Roz Hota Hai In Aankhon Ko Intezar,
Bas, Kahin Se Laut Aaye Wo Mohobbat Teri"!!!

A TRIBUTE…

My childhood friend, Neeta and her mom left us last year on 17 DECEMBER,2008… They lost their lives in a road accident… I’m here, writing my feelings for them..

 “It’s a year now, and, I have decorated all your memories deep into my heart.. Right from our colony, school and after a long long gap of 10 yrs to Hyderabad.. All those days are as fresh as today… I still can’t believe that you are no more.. But you are somewhere watching all your loved ones..

 I can’t give you anything other than my prayers…

This is a tribute to you, May your soul rest in peace…!!!”

 “Ek aah bhari hogi, Humne naa suni hogi

Jaate-jaate tumne, Aawaaz to di hogi,

Har waqt yahi hai gam,

Us waqt kahaan the hum,

kahaan tum chale gaye..?

Chitthi na koi sandes, jaane wo kaunsa des, jahaan tum chale gaye..

Is dil pe laga ke thes, jaane wo kaunsa des, jahaan tum chale gaye…

Har cheez pe ashkon se, likha hai tumhara naam,

Ye raste, ghar, galiyaan, tumhe kar na sake salaam,

Har dil mein reh gayi baat,

Jaldi se chuda kar haath,

Kahaan tum chale gaye…?

Ab yaadon ke kaante, iss dil mein chubhte hain,

Na dard theherta hai, naa aansu rukte hain,

Tumhe dhund raha hai pyaar,

hum kaise karein ekraar,

ke ‘Haan’ tum chale gaye…!!!”

Lamhe...

"Mutthi Mein Apni Kuch Lamhon Ko Qaid Rakha Hai,

Dil Mein Mere, Teri Yaadon Ka Mela Hai,

Tuti Tasveer Ab Dhundli Ho Gayi Hai,

Jo Kehti Thi Ke Tera Mujhse Koi Rishta Hai...

Dil Mein Mere, Teri Yaadon Ka Mela Hai,

Mutthi Mein Maine Un Lamhon Ko Qaid Rakha Hai...!!!"

Kuch Pal

"Kuch Pal Palkon Pe Palte Hain,

Kuch Pal Ankhon Mein Jalte Hain,

Toota Sa Khwaab Lekar, Door Jaate Huye,

Kuch Pal Karwat Badaltein Hain..!!!"

Isi ka naam shayad, ZINDAGI hai!!!

"This is LIFE they say,

All made of mirror and clay,

One breaks soon and other gets washed away..."

"Isi ka naam shayad, ZINDAGI hai!!

Har samay wahi nahi rehta, har din yeh rukh badalti hai,

Achha ho ya bura, yeh yaadein chod jati hai,

Pal guzarta hai yahan chutki mein, raatein dhalti hain yaadon mein,

Koi kisika nahi yahaan, fir bhi, samay beet jaata hai sabko apna banane mein,

Guzare Kal ke andhere mein yeh humein rulaati hai,

Subah fir naye kal ki umeed mein hasaati hai,

Ajeeb khel hai us khuda ka, jiske pehlu mein humari zindagi simat jaati hai..

In sab ke beech dekhiye,

Na koi dost hamesha sath rehta hai, na koi saathi,

Yeh to us phool ki tarah hai, jo aaj khilta hai, kal bikhar jaata hai..

Ya us taare ki tarah, jo aaj nazar aata hai, aur kal tut jaata hai…

Koi kisise shikaayat nahi karta, koi kisike liye aansu nahi bahaata,

Bas yuhi dil mein rakhta hai, ek dhundli si tasveer, ek meethi si yaad…

Guzar jaati hai yuhi Zindagi bas,

Achha ho ya bura, yeh yaadein chod jati hai,

Guzare Kal ke andhere mein yeh humein rulaati hai,

Subah fir naye kal ki umeed mein hasaati hai,

Bas yuhi iski tasveer reh jaati hai…

Isi ka naam shayad, ZINDAGI hai!!!"

An Impossible Dream

Its since last few days, i was quite upset..

Finally, after everything got well,, I peeped back into my life,,, and this is wat came to my mind...

Let me put it all in the form of a tale...

A depressed young gal, sitting on her bed, all alone, in a dark room..

Its diwali, and the lantern is lit up.. its evening time.. and few rays of light from this lantern try to jump thru the window n console her..

She goes back to her childhood..

Since her birth, she lived with her parents in a small town(Roha) somewhere in konkan.. The town was surrounded by sahyadris(mountains) all around.. They lived very happily there.. Her school, her colony, her friends, those silly talks everything was HER..

As if, God had gifted her eyes to see the beauty of her town..

God gifted her sentiments to feel for her teachers and ppl of colony staying together..

God gifted her hands to play in mud, legs to run along the bushes..

But now came the time to say 'BYE' to all these things she grew up with.. she had to leave this place, her school everything and set up a new start in a new place..

She grew up very well in age,, but yet the memories of her sweet childhood stayed with her always... She was incomplete without Roha!! She used to look at her school photos for hours together..She used to recollect her friend's names, teacher's names just coz she was afraid of forgetting them.. pointing them with her little index finger she literally 'by-hearted' the pics and memories.. Unaware of how deep that all went into her..

She used to get all Roha 'dreams',, she kept waiting for her father to say one day,"lets shift back to roha.." jus to get her friends, her teachers back..

Gradually, her school life was over and she realised how distant her dreams were..

Going back to her town n finding her friends back was something next to impossible..

She learnt to live with the fact that,"It was all gone.." and learnt to live with dat pain too...

The time she had there and the time she had here was totally different.. As if, God had brought her here for sufferings!!

Everytime she dropped a tear, she remembered Roha.. An incomplete dream..

She fought with her family to visit Roha jus for few hours.. Everybody around with her parents failed to understand her sentiments for the place..

She suffered and waited quietly for that day.. A day when she'll leave all the ppl here and go to Roha to live rest of her life there...

This patience had (n still has) immense power..

She knows somewhere in her heart that one day she'll shift to Roha forever..

But, god never gives you everything easily...

she completed her college life with the same feeling(of shifting to Roha when she starts earning...)

The twist comes here,

Now she is getting married... Its a hindu society where we live in.. She is going to a new family.. A gal anyways lives for her 'in-laws' when shez married..

she is sitting in her dark room preparing herself for the tough life ahead...

And she finds her 'ROHA', living silently in her..

She can't even promise herself now of visiting Roha as she did earlier..

And she starts melting.. Its this silly gal crying alone and as if someone consoling her..

Don't know who is this, maybe the li'l gal whom she left in Roha...

Now.. she realises dat a lot she prayed for Roha and she gained nothing..

Her personal lyf dumped her too.. She was terribly shaken off by everything that happened in her life.. She convinced herself by accepting all her mistakes and faults..

Now here, in this room she quietly decides,

"jeevan to mere haath mein nahi hai aur naa hi meri maut.."

She has to live her life as God has written for her...

but, she prays to her God as,

"Dear God, please, i wanna breathe my last there, in Roha!!"

When I Turned Back...

Hi,

I got a chance to stay alone n be wit me, a few days back..

And I was in no mood of missing it.. I grabbed the opportunity and penned all my thghts down on paper..

I would like to mention few lines written by GULZAR,

"Din kuch aise guzaarta hai koi,

Jaise ehsaan utaarta hai koi..

Aaina dekh kar tassalli hui,

humko iss ghar mein jaanta hai koi..

Der se gunjate hain sannate,

jaise humko pukaarta hai koi.."

When m alone, I recollect these lines and peep into my life..

How I lost everything, my beloved school, place, friends and all other things..

I may sound foolish but thats how i m..

I wrote these lines when i was alone cherishing my past..

And then it went as..

"Tere gam ki shyahi se likhi maine zindagi meri,

teri yaadon mein hi bas gayi mohobbat meri..

Rozana dhundti hun main jisko,

tere aansuon mein chup gayi muskaan meri..

Khalta hai jo dard tera har pal,

usi mein sama gayi hai arzoo meri..

Din bhar sehmi rehti hain aankhein,

har raat khwaabon mein hoti hai dastak teri..

Ab samjhaane ko kya bacha hai?

yunhi har pal rahegi kami teri..

Ise pagalpan kahu? yo deewaangi?

jo band aankhon se dekhti hun main tasveer teri..

Tere gam ki shyahi se likhi maine zindagi meri,

tere hi aansuon mein chup gayi mohobbat meri...!!!"

This Is What Came To My Mind And So I'm Here Writing A Blog

Hi!!

It feels so nervous when u know that people will read whatever you write. Moreover, thinking about their reactions and comments your heartbeats keep rising.

Well, let me tell you what is my blog all about.

Its since long that I listen to old Hindi music. Gradually, I started loving it and thinking, how can people make such good combination??

Next, what came to my mind was, LYRICS!!

Gulzar, Sudarshan Fakir, Javed Akhtar, Madan Mohan n many more, have written fabulous songs which are loved by everybody down the generations!!

Whenever I'm alone, meaning, "Main Jab Bhi Akeli Hoti Hun...", I really don't know what makes me write something... Something which sounds like a poem and which is just very close to my heart!!

I just thought of posting whatever I write and thus share it with you...

Few lines written by SUDARSHAN FAKIR are as,

"Saamne Hai Jo Use, Log Bura Kehte Hain,

Jisko Dekha Bhi Nahi, Usko Khuda Kehte Hain.

Zindagi Ko Bhi Sila(reward) Kehte Hain Kehne Wale,

Jeene Wale Ko Gunahon Ki Saza Kehte Hain."

Truly speaking, the day I heard this song (sung by Jagjit Singh), I was unable to breathe smoothly. I don't know why but I enjoy being in this world of reality!!

Now, you are waiting for my ORIGINAL post, na??

I guess it will take a day more..

Will soon come up with something..

I have something for now,, I have written this recently..

"Teri raahon mein ruk kar, humne apna hi intezaar kiya...

Jalte rahe khud, par tujhe aabaad kiya...

Rahein jeeven ki na aasan hui,

Bujh gaye raaste phir bhi manzil ko paa liya...

Tere tassavur mein hi apna jeevan sama liya,

Na ho kabhi tujhe iski khabar, yeh zeher bhi swikaar liya...

mere nagme kabhi paraye na the par aaj yeh ehsaan chuka diya..

Tere tassavur mein humne apna jeevan sama liya...

Teri raahon mein ruk kar humne apna hi intezaar kiya.. "

Hows that??