When I Speak To Myself...

Marriages

2011-09-09T13:47:00.000+05:30

A few miles away,walking down the street,

I saw a handsome guywaiting there for me..

Smiling as his dreamhad come true,

Too many words to say,yet very few..

A little shy, a littlehappy,

We decided finally tomarry..

And now when I look athim,

I realize, what it hadbeen,

Marriages are really madein heaven!!!

Yuhi...

2011-06-26T08:36:00.001+05:30

Kitne dafe dil ne kaha, dil ki suni Kitne dafe..

Waise to teri NA mein bhi maine dhundli apni khushi,

Tu jo gar HAAN kahe to baat hogi aur hi,

Dil hi rakhne ko kabhi,

Upar upar se sahi, keh de na HAAN,

Keh de na HAAN yuhi..

Bebas...

2010-12-23T15:37:00.002+05:30

Gunaahon Mein Dabe Hain To Kya?

Bebas Hue Hain Hum To Kya?

Darte Hain Kehne Se To,

Dard Ko Chupaya To Kya?

Uske Darbaar Mein Hum Jaa Na Sake,

Usse Naazrein Hum Mila Na Sake,

Nahin Reh Paye Umr Bhar Sath To Kya?

Dil Mein Chupa Hai Thoda Pyar To Kya?

Yu To Aksar Log Kehte Hain,

Pyar Ki Har Saza Dete Hain,

Nahin Samjhe Hain Wo Log To Kya?

Khuda Ne Gar Hume Apnaya To Kya?

Yehi Zindagi Hai To Kya?

Haste Hue Gar Hum Ro Diye To Kya?

Darte Hain Jo Kehne Se To,

Dard Ko Chupa Liya To Kya?

Bebas Hue Hain Hum To Kya?

Gunaahon Mein Dabe Hain Hum To Kya?

Daaman...

2010-12-22T20:11:00.002+05:30

Uske Dard Ne Mujhe Fir Rula Diya,

Mujhse Mera Daaman Chuda Liya,

Kahaan Chupaau Main Khudko?

Uske Pyaar Ne Mujhe Jo Yun Dhund Liya.

Kyu Rehti Hai Ye Ranjish Mujhme?

Kyu Hai Ye Toofan Saanso Mein?

Kyu Kisi Ke Gunhegaar Ho Jaate Hain Hum?

Kyu Kisi Ko Bhula Kar Bhi Yaad Karte Hain Hum?

Kyu Uske Pyar Ne Mujhe Fir Rula Diya?

Kyu Mera daaman usne Chuda Liya??

Hall Of Shame

2010-11-10T00:43:00.000+05:30

Hall Of Shame

Prez Barack Obama and his charming wife Michelle Obama were pleased by Indians! Said, India is no more a rising power, has already risen! The world today is appreciating our “Unity in Diversity”. And on the other side, our people, our leaders are ruining us.

70% of Indians are common people like you and me. We all have dal-roti in our meals. We all dream of a better life and not corrupt life. We the common people seldom see those big notes. We never have those many zeros when describing our income. A poor man earns his living with great pains. Same is the case when it comes to my father or your father. We select leaders on the basis of their capability. We respect them, We support them, We salute them, and they, they just step on us and move on.

Whenever nation is in pain, our soldiers are always ready to guard us. Think for a minute, that when a soldier lays his life for the GREAT MOTHERLAND, a mother loses her son, a wife loses her husband, and kids lose their father. We all only pay our condolences. We can never repay the family what it has lost. But we can atleast give them what they really deserve, can’t we?

Today, very humbly I want to raise this point that, who are these leaders to steal away the rights of our soldiers? Is it that our leaders are so poor to step down to such level? Does this suit their image? Their personality? Or is it that all of them have gone crazy after money – currency their great greed!

I being the youth of India is terribly hurt by the condition of the nation today. Ofcourse, I am not so talented as our leaders are. I’ve zero knowledge regarding politics. But I see what is going on in the nation and our state.

Our chief minister Ashok chavan quits today. I am forced to write this here that, just an hour before I was watching news. It gave the details as :-

Adarsh CHS was set up supposedly with the aim of "accomodating and rewarding the heroes of the Kargil operation and those who laid down their lives for the protection of the motherland," if one looks at the initial list of the society members of the Adarsh Co-operative Housing Society, it comprised 40 members and included mostly defence personnel. Now the list stands at 103, out of which only 37 members belong to the army and just three members have anything to do with the Kargil war.

Some of the bureaucrats and politicians who are accused of fraudulently obtaining flats for themselves or their relatives:

Ashok Chavan, chief minister, Maharashtra Jairaj Phatak, ex-municipal commissioner (flat in the name of his son Kanishka J Phatak) Ramanand Tiwari, state information commissioner (in the name of son, Onkar Tiwari) Suresh Prabhu, Shiv Sena (own name) Pradeep Vyas, ex-collector, Mumbai ( in the name of his wife and fellow IAS officer Seema Vyas) Jitender Awhad, NCP (own name) Indris Kundan, ex-ollector, Mumbai (own name)

Kanhaiyalal Gidwani, Congress (along with 2 sons, Kailash and Amit) Uttam Khobragade, BEST GM (in the name of daughter, Devyani, an Indian Foreign Service official) Babasaheb Kupekar, Congress (own name) DK Sankaran, Ex-chief secretary (in the name of daughter, Devyani) Shriniwas Patil, NCP (own name)

CS Sangitrao, ex-collector, suburban (in the name of son, Ranjit

Krishnarao Patil, Congress SC Deshmukh, Collector, Pune (own name) Arun Pawar, ex-income tax commissioner (own name)

PV Deshmukh, secretary, urban development (own name).

Meanwhile, two of the Chavan's relatives who had been allotted flats in Adarsh, resigned from the society on Friday.

Raaste...

2010-09-24T13:40:00.000+05:30

Raaste the akele, na jane kiska saath tha,

Doobi thi manzilein, phir bhi wo vishwaas tha,

Sach tha wo, ya tha ek dhoka??

Uljhi hasraton mein simta uska pyaar tha..

Nazrein na uthi par baatein keh gayi,

Milna na-milna, kismat ke haath tha,

Raaste the akele aur, shayad usi ka saath tha!!

Chalte Chalte...

2010-07-11T16:40:00.001+05:30

Chalte Chalte use peeche chod aaye hum,

Darr tha jise khone ka, aaj use kho aaye hum,

Bhul jaana jise, shayad, munasib nahi tha,

Aaj use bhul aaye hum!

Chalte Chalte use peeche chod aaye hum,

Uske gum ko bhul aaye hum!

Curse...

2010-06-16T01:28:00.000+05:30

Aaj fir wo mujhse milne aaya,

Halke se meri ankhon ko chu gaya,

Daba kar rakha tha jise saalon se,

Aaj fir usi dard ne mujhe apnaya..

Uske mehfil ki dhul the hum,

Kaapti hasraton ki tasveer the hum,

Ek toofan fir aisa aaya,

Meri maut par uska paigam aaya..

Taras gayi thi aankhein jo dekhne ko,

Usi ne mujhe umr bhar rulaaya,

Ek toofan fir aisa aaya,

Meri maut par uska paigam aaya..

Aaj fir wo mujhse milne aaya…

Aaj fir usi dard ne mujhe apnaya..

Khamoshi…

2010-06-08T15:14:00.000+05:30

Kal raat maine unhe rula diya,

Meri khamoshi se unhone shabdon ko chura liya..

Gunahon ke apne tohfe se maine,

Unhe unjaane hi zakham de diya…

Ab kisse maafi maange hum?

Unhone jab rishta hi tod diya…

Meri khamoshi se unhone shabdon ko chura liya..

Kal raat maine unhe, aur shayad khudko bhi rula diya..!!!

HIDDEN

2010-06-05T21:40:00.000+05:30

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“Tip, tip…” It dropped again. People thought, there was some leakage from the tomb. Scientists studied every possible aspect of it, yet, failed to discover the fact. Rabindranath Tagore had said, “One Tear Drop… Upon the cheek of time”! And, rumors have it that its the only sign of Mumtaz’s grief at TAJ-MAHAL! Once a year during rainy season it falls on her cenotaph... Nobody till date knows the “HIDDEN-TRUTH” behind this fact!!

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Aainaa

2010-05-23T17:06:00.000+05:30

Ankhon se roothe hain khwab mere,

Honthon se roothi hai muskaan,

Kahaan jaa rahi hai ye zindagi?

Yehi soch kar hun main hairaan..

Bikharte palon me simti hun main,

Aaine se ab darti hun main,

Chalka jo dard in ankhon se kabhi,

Us toofan se darti hun main…

Bikharte palon me simti hun main,

Aaine se ab darti hun main,

Kahaan jaa rahi hai ye zindagi?

Yeh sochkar hairaan hun main…

Ibadat Hai Jiski....

2010-04-28T19:44:00.000+05:30

Sapno Mein Paya Jise, Ankhon Ne Use Khoya Hai,

Isi Se Humne Mohobbat Ko Parkha Hai,

Ibadat Karte The Jiski Har Pal,

Aaj Bhi Uski Khushi Ke Liye, Ye Sar Jhukta Hai!!!

Ehsaas

2010-03-26T14:54:00.001+05:30

Uski yaadon ka mere dil mein “MELA” sa hai,

Aaj fir bhi wo mera “APNA” sa hai..

Jab beet gaya sab tab bhi kuch baaki sa hai..

Bhul gaya hai wo mujhe par,

Ab bhi use sab “YAAD” sa hai..

Wo ab bhi mera “APNA” sa hai

Aaj bhi mera use koi “Rishta” sa hai,

Dosti ka nahi “EHSAAS” ka hai!!

Wo ab bhi mera “APNA” sa hai,

Use ab bhi sab “YAAD” sa hai

Daman...

2010-03-15T23:20:00.000+05:30

Us waqt ke daman mein humein, Wo kisi farishte se kam na laga,

Sadiyon ka samay humein, Bas, Ek pal jaisa laga..

Bhul nahi paaye hain hum jise,

Wo khwaab aaj bhi in aankhon ko, meetha-meetha sa laga..

Najaane wo kahaan se aaya tha,

Jiska laut jaana humein bura-bura sa laga…

Us waqt ke daman mein humein, Wo kisi farishte se kam na laga…

Sadiyon ka samay humein, Bas, Ek pal jaisa laga..

Saath

2010-03-09T21:18:00.000+05:30

Ankhon me uski bhi dard bhara tha,

Magar naseeb ka shayad yahi khel tha,

Har pal saath diya jisne,

Aaj wo humse mu mod kar chala tha,

Dil par uske bojh tha phir bhi,

Wo mujhe rula kar chala tha..

Mere saamne meri tasveer mita kar,

Phir wo use jodne chala tha,

Ankho me uski ab bhi dard bhara tha,

Magar naseeb ka shayad yehi khel tha…

Raaste...

2010-02-28T22:43:00.001+05:30

Akele Raaston Ka Safar Humne Tanha Tay Kiya,

Uski Yaadon Mein Apna Intezaar Kiya,

Kya Pata Tha, Itna Gehra Rishta Hoga Humara,

Us Khuda Se Pehla Jo Humne Use Yaad Kiya..

Na Dekhi Ek Nazar Bharke Surat Uski,

Waqt Ne Kabhi Wo Mauka Hi Nahi Diya,

Aaj Phir, Khuda Se Pehle Humne Use Yaad Kiya,

Uski Yaadon Mein Humne Apna Safar Tay Kiya...

Sanjivani

2010-02-26T11:31:00.000+05:30

"Har dard gam ko chupaaye,

Kis tarah humko jeena pada,

Tumse yeh bhi na poocha gaya,

Hum rahen to rahen,

Na rahen, to bhi kya?

To bhi kya??"

These are not my lines.... But these have definitely changed me a lot... They are with me since my school time..

Well, if you are so desperate to know its source, then let me tell you.. I'd heard this in a soap, named, "Sanjivani - A Medical Boon"!!

I simply thought of sharing these with you..

Zindagi Ki Raahon Mein...

2010-02-26T11:20:00.000+05:30

Zindagi ki raahon mein ye andhera kyu hai?

Hairaan nazron mein yeh sawal kyu hai?

Na dikhe roshni ki koi kiran,

Aise gehre badlon mein khoya yeh aasmaan kyu hai?

Gumsum

2010-01-29T19:45:00.000+05:30

"Gunahon ka bojh tha mujhpar,

Uski wafa ka karz tha mujhpar,

Khamoshi se guzar gaya jo toofaan,

Us nuksaan ka dosh tha mujhpar..

Aise mein kya roye hum?

Gunhegaar ka jo ilzaam tha mujhpar,

Uske saath ka karz tha mujhpar,

Guzar gaya sab fir bhi tanhayi ka asar tha mujhpar..!!"

Jab Praan Tan Se Nikle..

2010-01-18T22:05:00.000+05:30

It was yesterday that I had been to “kirtan sabha” at a famous “hanuman mandir” in our town.

Luckily, I gotta chance to listen to Anup Jalota (live).. Kirtan went as…

Itna to Karna Swami, Jab Praan tan se nikle

Govinda Naam leke, Tab pran tan se nikle,

Shri Gangaji the tat ho, Jamuna Ka vanshivat ho,

mera sawla nikat ho, jab pran tan se Nikle

Pitambari kasi ho, Chabi maan main yeh basi ho,

Hotho pe kuch hasi ho, jab pran tan se nikle

Jab kanth pran aye, koi rog na sataye

Yam darash na dikhaye, Jab pran tan se nikle

us vakt jaldi ana, nahi Shyam Bhul Jana,

Radhe ko saath lana, jab pran tan se nikle,

ek bhakt ki hai arji, khud garj ki hai garji

aage Tumhari marji jab pran tan se Nikle

Itna to karna Swami, Jab pran tan se Nikle..

This was just Awesome!! I failed to stop my tears.. I have no words to write what I felt.

I remember, around 7yrs ago, when I was in school and our Hindi teacher was teaching us sum lesson, “marna, ek kala, ek chance”! Dat was the first time I realized this fact..

I pray to Lord Krishna to gift us all an easy end! God bless!

TASVEER

2010-01-18T21:37:00.000+05:30

"Palkon par saji hai tasveer teri,

jaane kahaan kho gayi zindagi meri..

karz tha mujhpar teri mohobbat ka

Aaj lauta di wo mohobbat teri..

Guzre har din isi khayaal mein,

Jaane kahaan kho gayi raatein meri,

Chale the hum lamhon ko sametne,

Bhul gaye usme tuti tasveer teri..

karz tha mujhpar teri mohobbat ka

Aaj lauta di wo mohobbat teri..

jaane kahaan kho gayi zindagi meri..

Kaise bhul gaye hum tasveer teri??"

All's Well That Ends Well!!

2010-01-15T22:45:00.000+05:30

Hello!

Today, I'm here writing some weird thghts dat really made me think "Aye, ye main hi hu naa??"

All in the world of "in-laws", it feels so different!

Here I go...

Earlier, life was only bout my family, college, academics, etc..etc..

Since my school time, it was we 5ppl who always stayed together.. We form a small group.

Now, two of them are outta town, one in IIT and other in B'lore.. Third is here but is busy with his academics as the fourth one..

Fifth is me,, and surprisingly, m busy with my "in-laws".. Now, this is something which is really difficult to digest, for me atleast.

Earlier, we used to plan group meetings and etc.. Now, I plan my "family meetings"..

Previously, Life was just gifting smiles to my friends,, now, its all for my "in-laws"!!

Am I talking like those aunties who simply chat for timepass coz they have no other work???? Maybe..

Life is now changed from books to recipes.. From classroom to kitchen..

M a very simple gal.. Make up and all irritates me, frankly.. I hardly put kajal sumtimes..

My looks don matter me much.. But, strangely, now, I always keep a watch on my hairs and my looks..(I still hate dat makeup but..)

Ooops.. I was never like dat..

SHAADI, the big laddoo is here!!

Well, it has atleast two yrs for me to turn "Dixit" from "Mishra".. But, all the flavors of happiness are here..

Got a fiancee, Got a simple, kind, humble sasuma,, not lik others who treat bahu's lik bahu's and not daughters.. huh!!

Got a sister-in-law (nanand) who literally cares a lot.. All chintar-pintar in the family call me "Bhabhi", and then I realise,, "Main aur bhabhi??" , really??

Hmmmm.... Yes!! Mummyji (Mother-in-law) is waiting to make me her's and mummy (my mom) wants to enjoy these days wit me completely.. And my papa, he only admires me!!

This is wat m really living in.. A drastically changed life and Yes! Much happier life!!

Thank God!!

Well, now m busy with my engagement preparations!! heeeheee ;-))))

Jus one mnth to go and God! lotsa things to be still done.. M really really excited for it!!

Feels like I'm on seventh cloud!! yuppppppppppiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

For My Best Friend!

2009-12-30T23:25:00.000+05:30

Its my birthday today and I was out with my relative for a new release "3-idiots"!

No doubt, the movie is awesome but m here sharing something very special about my special friend!!

"Behti Hawa Sa Tha Wo,

Udti Patang Sa Tha Wo,

Kahaan Gaya Use Dhundo...."

The day i heard this song, only one thing came to my mind, SAURABH!!

My bestest friend who is no more with me..

This is for you, Saurabh..

M sure atleast once in yo lifetime you will go thru my blog and will be pleased to know that I miss you as a true friend yaar...

I remember how desperately you brought "Tekas" for me from Jodhpur!! I need not tell you that I remember everything as you do... Anyway, THANKYOU!!

Thank you sooooooooo very much for everything

Unke Liye...

2009-12-23T18:50:00.000+05:30

Unka Ehsaas Meri Saanson Mein Rehta Hai,

Unka Hi Khayal Mujhe Pal-Pal Rehta Hai,

Saath Nibhaane Ka Waada Jo Kiya Hai Unhone,

Yehi Ehsaas Har Pal Rehta Hai,

Kisiko Apna Banane Ka Maza Hi Kuch Aur Hai,

Kisike Ho Jaane Ka Ehsaas Hi Kuch Aur Hai,

Na Jaane Kya Maksad Hai Meri Zindagi Ka,

Par Pyaar Se Jeevan Jeena Hi Kuch Aur Hai..

BEST FRIENDS...HARD TO FIND, 'N' STIL HARDER TO LOSE...

2009-12-19T20:09:00.000+05:30

Its really hard to live yo life without yo best friends...

I really miss them, but the only obligation is that, I can't approach any of them.. Maybe, coz I hurt them..

This is when I have realised how incomplete I'm without them..

I'm all alone today, and life has turn rough again... I try to divert my mind and play few of my favorites.. Here goes the song and I realise how far I've come.. Rather, I'm still waiting and how far they have left...

"Haath Chute Bhi To Rishte Nahi Chuta Karte,

Waqt Ki Shaakh Se Lamhe Nahi Toda Karte..

Shahed(honey) Jeene Ka Mila Karta Hai Thoda-Thoda,

Jaane Walon Ke Liye Dil Nahi 'Thoda' Karte.."

I really miss you guys.. You'll always remain with me as sweet as ever.

I really wonder how blindly I believed u and changed myself as u always wanted.. Maybe that's y, today I'm able to tackle things much easily when you are not there..

Shruti, my best friend, is not with me.. I miss her like hell! but now its a long time that she's not with me.. Still, I remember d days we spent together in college and university campus.. Those sandwiches and pani puri's... The superb fly over in our town.. I miss everything!!

Saurabh, my other best friend..

Its jus a few months that m practising to live life without him! Before giving my opinion or reaction, I imagine (Saurabh yahaan hota toh kya karta?) aur wahi karti hu... Everything becomes SIMPLE!! Thank you Saurabh!! I've no words to describe how much you have given me.. Its a real TREASURE!

They have touched my life DIFFERENTLY!!

I can never dare to forget them, rather define myself without them.. However distant they are...

Thank You!!

Raahein...

2009-12-19T18:36:00.000+05:30

Raahein Kabhi Bhatakti Nahi, Hum Bhatak Jaate Hain,

Khuda Ko Bewajah Kos Kar, Ruth Hum Jaate Hain...

Wo To Har Samay Humein Sambhalte Hain,

Na Jaane Kyu, Fir Bhi, Hum Dagmaga Jaate Hain..

Roz Hota Hai Iss Dil Mein Shor, Roz Hoti Hai Iss Dil Mein Khamoshi,

Thak Jaate Hain Hum Magar, Har Pal Rehti Hai Ye Behoshi!

Badi Shiddat Se Aaj Likhne Chale Hum, Iss Dil Ki Kahani,

Shabd Chup Ho Gaye Aur, Chalke Aankhon Ki Zabaani…

Na Jaane Kyu Hum Inse Kheeche Chale Jaate Hain,

Rote Hain Khud Aur Aansu Hume Manaate Hain..

Khuda Ko Bewajah Kos Kar, Ruth Hum Jaate Hain.

Raahein Kabhi Bhatakti Nahi, Bhatak Hum Jaate Hain…

Meri Likhi...

2009-12-17T23:18:00.000+05:30

"Har Pal Laata Hai Yaadein Teri,
Kisse Kahu Main Wo Baatein Teri?
Roz Hota Hai In Aankhon Ko Intezar,
Bas, Kahin Se Laut Aaye Wo Mohobbat Teri"!!!

A TRIBUTE…

2009-12-16T14:32:00.000+05:30

My childhood friend, Neeta and her mom left us last year on 17 DECEMBER,2008… They lost their lives in a road accident… I’m here, writing my feelings for them..

“It’s a year now, and, I have decorated all your memories deep into my heart.. Right from our colony, school and after a long long gap of 10 yrs to Hyderabad.. All those days are as fresh as today… I still can’t believe that you are no more.. But you are somewhere watching all your loved ones..

I can’t give you anything other than my prayers…

This is a tribute to you, May your soul rest in peace…!!!”

“Ek aah bhari hogi, Humne naa suni hogi

Jaate-jaate tumne, Aawaaz to di hogi,

Har waqt yahi hai gam,

Us waqt kahaan the hum,

kahaan tum chale gaye..?

Chitthi na koi sandes, jaane wo kaunsa des, jahaan tum chale gaye..

Is dil pe laga ke thes, jaane wo kaunsa des, jahaan tum chale gaye…

Har cheez pe ashkon se, likha hai tumhara naam,

Ye raste, ghar, galiyaan, tumhe kar na sake salaam,

Har dil mein reh gayi baat,

Jaldi se chuda kar haath,

Kahaan tum chale gaye…?

Ab yaadon ke kaante, iss dil mein chubhte hain,

Na dard theherta hai, naa aansu rukte hain,

Tumhe dhund raha hai pyaar,

hum kaise karein ekraar,

ke ‘Haan’ tum chale gaye…!!!”

Lamhe...

2009-12-15T14:06:00.000+05:30

"Mutthi Mein Apni Kuch Lamhon Ko Qaid Rakha Hai,

Dil Mein Mere, Teri Yaadon Ka Mela Hai,

Tuti Tasveer Ab Dhundli Ho Gayi Hai,

Jo Kehti Thi Ke Tera Mujhse Koi Rishta Hai...

Dil Mein Mere, Teri Yaadon Ka Mela Hai,

Mutthi Mein Maine Un Lamhon Ko Qaid Rakha Hai...!!!"

Kuch Pal

2009-12-10T13:10:00.000+05:30

"Kuch Pal Palkon Pe Palte Hain,

Kuch Pal Ankhon Mein Jalte Hain,

Toota Sa Khwaab Lekar, Door Jaate Huye,

Kuch Pal Karwat Badaltein Hain..!!!"

Isi ka naam shayad, ZINDAGI hai!!!

2009-12-04T13:20:00.000+05:30

"This is LIFE they say,

All made of mirror and clay,

One breaks soon and other gets washed away..."

"Isi ka naam shayad, ZINDAGI hai!!

Har samay wahi nahi rehta, har din yeh rukh badalti hai,

Achha ho ya bura, yeh yaadein chod jati hai,

Pal guzarta hai yahan chutki mein, raatein dhalti hain yaadon mein,

Koi kisika nahi yahaan, fir bhi, samay beet jaata hai sabko apna banane mein,

Guzare Kal ke andhere mein yeh humein rulaati hai,

Subah fir naye kal ki umeed mein hasaati hai,

Ajeeb khel hai us khuda ka, jiske pehlu mein humari zindagi simat jaati hai..

In sab ke beech dekhiye,

Na koi dost hamesha sath rehta hai, na koi saathi,

Yeh to us phool ki tarah hai, jo aaj khilta hai, kal bikhar jaata hai..

Ya us taare ki tarah, jo aaj nazar aata hai, aur kal tut jaata hai…

Koi kisise shikaayat nahi karta, koi kisike liye aansu nahi bahaata,

Bas yuhi dil mein rakhta hai, ek dhundli si tasveer, ek meethi si yaad…

Guzar jaati hai yuhi Zindagi bas,

Achha ho ya bura, yeh yaadein chod jati hai,

Guzare Kal ke andhere mein yeh humein rulaati hai,

Subah fir naye kal ki umeed mein hasaati hai,

Bas yuhi iski tasveer reh jaati hai…

Isi ka naam shayad, ZINDAGI hai!!!"

An Impossible Dream

2009-10-24T10:52:00.000+05:30

Its since last few days, i was quite upset..

Finally, after everything got well,, I peeped back into my life,,, and this is wat came to my mind...

Let me put it all in the form of a tale...

A depressed young gal, sitting on her bed, all alone, in a dark room..

Its diwali, and the lantern is lit up.. its evening time.. and few rays of light from this lantern try to jump thru the window n console her..

She goes back to her childhood..

Since her birth, she lived with her parents in a small town(Roha) somewhere in konkan.. The town was surrounded by sahyadris(mountains) all around.. They lived very happily there.. Her school, her colony, her friends, those silly talks everything was HER..

As if, God had gifted her eyes to see the beauty of her town..

God gifted her sentiments to feel for her teachers and ppl of colony staying together..

God gifted her hands to play in mud, legs to run along the bushes..

But now came the time to say 'BYE' to all these things she grew up with.. she had to leave this place, her school everything and set up a new start in a new place..

She grew up very well in age,, but yet the memories of her sweet childhood stayed with her always... She was incomplete without Roha!! She used to look at her school photos for hours together..She used to recollect her friend's names, teacher's names just coz she was afraid of forgetting them.. pointing them with her little index finger she literally 'by-hearted' the pics and memories.. Unaware of how deep that all went into her..

She used to get all Roha 'dreams',, she kept waiting for her father to say one day,"lets shift back to roha.." jus to get her friends, her teachers back..

Gradually, her school life was over and she realised how distant her dreams were..

Going back to her town n finding her friends back was something next to impossible..

She learnt to live with the fact that,"It was all gone.." and learnt to live with dat pain too...

The time she had there and the time she had here was totally different.. As if, God had brought her here for sufferings!!

Everytime she dropped a tear, she remembered Roha.. An incomplete dream..

She fought with her family to visit Roha jus for few hours.. Everybody around with her parents failed to understand her sentiments for the place..

She suffered and waited quietly for that day.. A day when she'll leave all the ppl here and go to Roha to live rest of her life there...

This patience had (n still has) immense power..

She knows somewhere in her heart that one day she'll shift to Roha forever..

But, god never gives you everything easily...

she completed her college life with the same feeling(of shifting to Roha when she starts earning...)

The twist comes here,

Now she is getting married... Its a hindu society where we live in.. She is going to a new family.. A gal anyways lives for her 'in-laws' when shez married..

she is sitting in her dark room preparing herself for the tough life ahead...

And she finds her 'ROHA', living silently in her..

She can't even promise herself now of visiting Roha as she did earlier..

And she starts melting.. Its this silly gal crying alone and as if someone consoling her..

Don't know who is this, maybe the li'l gal whom she left in Roha...

Now.. she realises dat a lot she prayed for Roha and she gained nothing..

Her personal lyf dumped her too.. She was terribly shaken off by everything that happened in her life.. She convinced herself by accepting all her mistakes and faults..

Now here, in this room she quietly decides,

"jeevan to mere haath mein nahi hai aur naa hi meri maut.."

She has to live her life as God has written for her...

but, she prays to her God as,

"Dear God, please, i wanna breathe my last there, in Roha!!"

When I Turned Back...

2009-10-20T21:29:00.000+05:30

Hi,

I got a chance to stay alone n be wit me, a few days back..

And I was in no mood of missing it.. I grabbed the opportunity and penned all my thghts down on paper..

I would like to mention few lines written by GULZAR,

"Din kuch aise guzaarta hai koi,

Jaise ehsaan utaarta hai koi..

Aaina dekh kar tassalli hui,

humko iss ghar mein jaanta hai koi..

Der se gunjate hain sannate,

jaise humko pukaarta hai koi.."

When m alone, I recollect these lines and peep into my life..

How I lost everything, my beloved school, place, friends and all other things..

I may sound foolish but thats how i m..

I wrote these lines when i was alone cherishing my past..

And then it went as..

"Tere gam ki shyahi se likhi maine zindagi meri,

teri yaadon mein hi bas gayi mohobbat meri..

Rozana dhundti hun main jisko,

tere aansuon mein chup gayi muskaan meri..

Khalta hai jo dard tera har pal,

usi mein sama gayi hai arzoo meri..

Din bhar sehmi rehti hain aankhein,

har raat khwaabon mein hoti hai dastak teri..

Ab samjhaane ko kya bacha hai?

yunhi har pal rahegi kami teri..

Ise pagalpan kahu? yo deewaangi?

jo band aankhon se dekhti hun main tasveer teri..

Tere gam ki shyahi se likhi maine zindagi meri,
tere hi aansuon mein chup gayi mohobbat meri...!!!"

This Is What Came To My Mind And So I'm Here Writing A Blog

2009-10-15T15:33:00.000+05:30

Hi!!

It feels so nervous when u know that people will read whatever you write. Moreover, thinking about their reactions and comments your heartbeats keep rising.

Well, let me tell you what is my blog all about.

Its since long that I listen to old Hindi music. Gradually, I started loving it and thinking, how can people make such good combination??

Next, what came to my mind was, LYRICS!!

Gulzar, Sudarshan Fakir, Javed Akhtar, Madan Mohan n many more, have written fabulous songs which are loved by everybody down the generations!!

Whenever I'm alone, meaning, "Main Jab Bhi Akeli Hoti Hun...", I really don't know what makes me write something... Something which sounds like a poem and which is just very close to my heart!!

I just thought of posting whatever I write and thus share it with you...

Few lines written by SUDARSHAN FAKIR are as,

"Saamne Hai Jo Use, Log Bura Kehte Hain,

Jisko Dekha Bhi Nahi, Usko Khuda Kehte Hain.

Zindagi Ko Bhi Sila(reward) Kehte Hain Kehne Wale,

Jeene Wale Ko Gunahon Ki Saza Kehte Hain."

Truly speaking, the day I heard this song (sung by Jagjit Singh), I was unable to breathe smoothly. I don't know why but I enjoy being in this world of reality!!

Now, you are waiting for my ORIGINAL post, na??

I guess it will take a day more..

Will soon come up with something..

I have something for now,, I have written this recently..

"Teri raahon mein ruk kar, humne apna hi intezaar kiya...

Jalte rahe khud, par tujhe aabaad kiya...

Rahein jeeven ki na aasan hui,

Bujh gaye raaste phir bhi manzil ko paa liya...

Tere tassavur mein hi apna jeevan sama liya,

Na ho kabhi tujhe iski khabar, yeh zeher bhi swikaar liya...

mere nagme kabhi paraye na the par aaj yeh ehsaan chuka diya..

Tere tassavur mein humne apna jeevan sama liya...

Teri raahon mein ruk kar humne apna hi intezaar kiya.. "

Hows that??